Weigh-in Wednesday and PT issues

Starting Weight: 153.6

Last week: 154.2

This week: 151.8

Change: down 2.4

Total change: down 1.8

Better than last week, but yesterday was even better. I hate that I can barely eat, workout hard, and then have a dinner with the littlest bit of salt and gain almost 2 pounds overnight. It's stupid.

Unrelated news that is causing me to want to eat my feelings and just curl up in bed: I'm facing the possibility of easing way back on my running or taking another total "rest" period. PT went horribly yesterday & he basically said there's nothing he can do for me unless I change the way I run. He recommended different shoes with more stability & working on moving toward a more mid-foot strike. He also cancelled my next session & didn't do any treatments yesterday. Basically, all the work I've missed over the past 3 weeks has been a total waste of time and I'm no better than when I started.  To me, saying I need to change the way I run sounds like a death sentence. I run the way I run. I watch people run on the trail or treadmill and I see MUCH worse form than mine. Legs flailing to the side. There's this one woman I see on the trail all the time that always has her head cocked to one side.  How are they not having issues?  He had me focus on that form of running for about 1/4 mile on the treadmill during PT and I was physically & mentally exhausted. I left PT and sat in my car and cried.  I cried more when I got home.  I'm still crying this morning.  I know it shouldn't feel like the end of the world, but it does.  Forgive me for being such a stupid baby, but there you have it.  I have new shoes now (Saucony Omni 11s if anyone cares - and they were't even on the list he gave me) and I'll try them tonight or tomorrow. Hoping I last 1/2 a fucking mile.

Have you changed your running form? How? Did you hire a coach, because that's probably the only thing that will work for me & I can't afford it.  Basically I think I'm screwed.


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