Weigh-in Wednesday: a whole lotta nothing

Starting Weight (11-28-12): 153.6

Last week: 145.4

This week: 145.4

Change: down zilch

Total change: down 8.2

To say I'm disappointed in myself would be an understatement.  This is the first week since the beginning of January that I haven't lost at least SOMETHING - and to me, maintaining when you are trying to lose is just as bad as gaining.  It means I fucked up this week.  If I was logging everything correctly, staying under my calories, and working out enough I would've lost weight. I worked out a ton (cardio 45-90 minutes on 6/7 days last week).  According to MFP, I stayed under my calorie goal on 5/7 days and the days I went over it was only by a very small amount.  

So what does this mean?  It means I'm not working hard enough at tracking, which in turn means my calories haven't been as low as I've thought.  I've never been one to log every morsel I put in my mouth which is why I always try to end the day a good 100 calories below goal to account for the little stuff I don't log.  I don't write down things like ketchup, mustard and pickles on my veggie burger since I consider it enough of a punishment that I'm eating a nasty Boca burger while the rest of the family is eating real burgers. I don't measure everything.  I pour my creamer into my coffee and I pour dressing on my salads.  I don't weigh my food because I want to feel like I'm a normal person.  I know this week I grabbed a few tortilla chips and chocolate chips here and there and I'm sure I didn't remember to log every chip.  I'm not perfect and this simply proves that.  The sad thing?  I don't think I CAN be perfect in this without making myself completely crazy and if I'm not perfect I feel like a failure.  It's a horrible loop to be in.

This is what I hate about tracking. 

However, I'll continue to track and try to be as close to perfect as I can be, because it's obviously working on more weeks than not.  My dress pants are getting loose (I wish I could say the same for my jeans) and some of my skirts are falling off my waist.  I know that is more important than a number on the scale, but I need to see those numbers.  

I just hope this isn't the start of a stupid plateau or a trend in the wrong direction.

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